Hey guys,
Tired.
Just woke up after a short nap..
Woke up to hell that is...
lets see..
Yesterday's all night study wasn't as productive as before.
But still managed to get a decent amount of work done.
Basically it was me, Yusmar,Iman and Irsyad.
I finished a chapter in bio and two argumentative essays for de cruz..
Mazi did some a-maths and Iman did some bio.
Irsyad drifted between babbling nonsense and sleeping..
Came home at like 10 today.
Logged on the com for a bit then just fell asleep.
Woke up to see my mom all messed up.
My sister's up to her bullshit again..
Some BGR shit..
Dumbass..
The whole family short of my Dad is messed up because of this..
I swear..
If i didn't love my sister as much i do woulda long killed her..
She's always the cause of problems in my family.. .
I mean,
I don't need this right now.
I'm the only one who can control my sister..thats the problem.
When there's a problem the whole family turns to me.
And by this i mean everyone including my aunts and uncles..
I've always been the one to handle things like this..
Frankly speaking..
Most of my family members short of my Dad have the EQ of a damn chicken..
They're idiots..
Think screaming solves everything..
See the kinda bullshit it's landed us in right now...
Indians are dumb
I got problems of my own guys.
My studies...
her...
friends..
I thought family was there to give you some support.
I mean..
I give everything for my family..
Everything.. .
Is it a sin to expect somethinn in return?
I'm just so disappointed...
And my sister..
I do everything for her..
Everything from giving her extra money to when in need to making her laugh when she's sad..
And this is what i get in return..
....
She's just so disappointing..
I got hope though.
I pulled through this before..
Although not as serious as this..
I know i can do it...it's just gonna take a long time..
I might actually leave home later..
Hang out around woodlands...
Wait till my Dad comes home from work..
Then hang around him..
We don't talk that much...but he's the only one that i can lean onto
sigh.. .
Life's a pain..
And i'm so lost..
Note: Wish i had her beside me.. . to like, you know...wash away all the pain..
